Monday, October 7, 2013

Own the Wind by Kristen Ashley

Own the Wind (Chaos, #1)** 5 Out of 5 Brilliant Biker Stars **


Too hot to handle...

Tabitha Allen grew up in the thick of Chaos--the Chaos Motorcycle Club that is.  Her father is Chaos' leader, and the club has always had her back.  But one rider was different from the start.  When Tabby was running wild, Shy Cage was there.  When tragedy tore her life apart, he helped her piece it back together.  And now, Tabby's thinking about much more than friendship...

Tabby is everything Shy's ever wanted, but everything he thinks he can't have.  She's beautiful, smart, and as his friend's daughter, untouchable.  Shy never expected more than friendship, so when tabby indicates she wants more--much more--he feels like the luckiest man alive.  But even lucky men can crash and burn...


Kristen Ashley is one of my favorite authors!!  Every book I read is amazing!  Own the Wind was AWESOME.  I loved the characters, Tabby and Shy, so much.  I connected with them in a way that had me feeling everything they were.  Tabby was one of the strongest characters I've seen.  She's been through something that would break most people but she survived.  Shy is amazing.  He watches her go through things and keeps his distance until he can't anymore.  These two were perfect for each other.  I really expected there to be a lot of together/apart between them but once they were together they pretty much stayed that way.  I loved the plot.  I love MC books and I love bikers so this was right up my ally.  The book is done in both POV's and I loved that too.  I liked the secondary characters and would love to read about them as well.  This book had me on the edge of my seat until the very end.  It had me in tears.  It had me laughing.  It also had me mad as all get out at times too.

A few things I loved:

How bada** Shy was but yet how gentle he could be with her
How he's willing to take matters in his own hands no matter how mad she gets
How he built a friendship with her even though he knew he wanted more
I love how possessive he could be
The epilogue :)

Things I didn't:

The length of the book...very long and they spend a lot of time apart
I wanted to know what happened with the war they brought on themselves
The way he was treated when the MC found out about them

All in all this is great book by an amazing author who nails it every time!  Check this one out!



Tabby is 19 the first time we meet her and when we last see her she's between 23 and 24.  She's the daughter of the Chaos Motorcycle Club's president.  She has thick dark hair, blue eyes, and she's beautiful.  She's opinionated and strong.  Independent and sassy.  I loved her.  She's had a crush on Shy for years.  She's a nurse once she graduates college.

Shy has no family aside from a brother (Landon) who is stationed overseas.  His parents were murdered when he was 12 and up until he comes across Chaos he is alone.  He has thick dark hair, muscles, tattoos, and drives a Harley.  He's bada**.  It was love at first sight for me.  He's been in love with Tabby for years but she's off limits since she's his prez's daughter.


Own the Wind begins with him being dragged out of bed in the middle of the night on the orders of retrieving the Prez's daughter.  She's at a party and his job is to get her and bring her home.  He's tired of the way she behaves and since no one has ever put a stop to it so he takes matters in his own hands.  He's harsh about it. So harsh that once he's done she cries.  She kisses him as she gets out of his truck at home and from that moment it he's hooked.  He's had a thing for her but not he wants her.  The problem with this is after this night she disappears.

5 months pass before he sees her again.  She's very weird around him.  He sees her in a coffee shop but she isn't friendly.  She took his advice to heart but when he offers to let her study in his apartment she never calls him.  Another 6 months pass before he sees her again.  This time it's at the compound and she literally look through him.  He's invisible to her.  He struggles with this knowing what he did was harsh and he should have handled it better.  7 more months pass and he has to help her with a flat tire.  She's not happy to see him, is throwing some major attitude, when he tries to apologize to her she pretty much guts him and leaves him standing on the side of the road.

4 months later he spots her waiting outside a building while he's at a red light.  She looks lost and he's about to call out to her when she finds what she's looking for.  She has met and fallen for a guy named Jason.  He's jealous and takes off before she can see him.  8 months later he gets word of her engagement to Jason and takes off for 3 weeks.  He's devastated but in a bada** biker way.  She's happy and he's just plain miserable.

6 months pass and 3 weeks before Tabby's wedding the unthinkable happens. Jason is killed in a car accident.  Tabby is devastated.  He doesn't go to the hospital but wants to do something to help so he helps with the kids in the club so her family can stay with her.

She wouldn't want to see him now.  She never wanted to see him.  But he had to do something.  He wasn't her family.  But she was his.

They don't speak.  3 1/2 months later he receives a phone call in the middle of the night and she's in trouble.  He doesn't hesitate and takes off to rescue her.  Once back at the compound, he gets her drunk, they play pool and talk like old friends.  The air between them clears paving a way for that friendship to grow.  They end up in his bed (no sex) and he holds her while she breaks down.

"I'd like to know why you dialed my number tonight, but if you don't wanna share that shit, that's cool too.  I'll just say, babe, I'm glad you did.  You need a safe place just to forget shit and escape, I'll give it to you.  Tonight.  Tomorrow.  Next week.  Next month.  That safe place is me, Tabby."

He wakes up alone the following morning.  6 weeks later and the book begins in her POV.  She hasn't seen him since she snuck out of his apartment.  She knows she handled it badly but that night confused her.  She feels guilty because of Jason but she can't stop thinking about how right it felt to be in his arms.  She's supposed to go to a party at the club but instead skips it because she doesn't know how to face him.  He shows up the next morning and he's got her in his arms before she can invite him in.  He then takes her to breakfast.

"May feel like you're fallin', Tabby, but remember, I'm at the bottom ready to catch you."

2 months later and she's leaving work and on the phone.  We find out that Tab and Shy have grown very close over the last few months.  They spend all of their time together.  She gradually gets back to the person she was before she lost Jason and it's because of him.  She comes up with this plan to find out who killed his parents.  He doesn't like it when she does this kind of stuff so you know there will be an issue later.

She stops at the compound and sees him coming out of the club with a beautiful woman.  They are holding hands and she gets on the back of his bike.  Since Tab's grown up in this club, she knows the difference between groupies and old lady's.  It's obvious this woman is the latter and he's with her.  She's crushed.  One of the other brothers tell her they have been together for 3 months.  I gotta say I wasn't at all happy about this.  I felt almost like he was cheating.  I know he thought they'd never be together but he couldn't have been blind enough to not see things changing between them.  2 weeks pass and she hasn't talked to him.  Avoidance is key.  She gets home from work and he's sitting in the dark in her apartment angry.  Let's just say freezing Shy out of your life isn't something you want to do.  He wants to know why she's avoiding him.  She tells him she knows about the other woman and he's not nice about it.  She tells him thanks for everything but he's off the hook now and free to live his life now.  He doesn't take that well.  He tells her he's cutting her loose and leaves her apartment leaving his key behind.

 photo shyandtab.gifA month passes and they are both miserable.  He's still with his girl but he's constantly wanting to be with Tab.  He gets word that she's taken a job far away and will be gone for months.  He storms her apartment and tells her she's not leaving him.  When she asks him why he grabs her and kisses her.  She agrees to stay.  He gives her 2 hours to get her head together and then she's to meet him at his apartment.  She shows up and he doesn't waste any time getting her into his bed.  The sex is hot and steamy...and it's about time.  Afterwards, he tells her not to ever leave him.  He then proceeds to just lay it all out there.  He lets her know that things between them isn't gonna be over in a few weeks, it may not ever be over.  He lets her know without saying an actual "I love You" that she's it for him.  While she was sorting things, he broke things off with the other girl.  He lets her know that he saw her that day outside that building and that he's been hers for a long time.  They become and "us" FINALLY!

They make it under the radar for 3 months.  No one knows they are together.  He's pretty much living with her.  Her best friend finds out about them and after some very ugly comments about Shy's character that friendship ends.  They go shopping later that day and end up running into his ex who is obviously still pinning for him.  Then to make an already bad day worse, her dad is waiting for her when she gets home.  He knows they are together and he's not happy.  He tells Shy to watch his back even though Shy tells him that he's in love with her.  After her dad leaves they finally tell each other they love each other.

She's mad and goes to the club a few days later and lets her step mom have it, when she comes out she finds her dad and Shy in a stand off.  The plan is to vote him out of the club because of them.  He doesn't even blink at this.  He tells her dad he doesn't care if they vote him out but that he isn't going to give her up.  He willing to loose everything for.  Shy looks her father in te eye and tells him that if he's forced to choose that he will choose Tab over the club.  She lets her dad know that if he's voted out the club will no longer be her home and she'll never forgive him for it.  Then they go home.

The following morning they find out that her grandmother has died.  After she talks to her step mother he sees her off to work.  She's so lost in grief that she doesn't realize her father is sitting on his bike outside their apartment.  Shy does notice him though.  They talk upstairs.  Her dad is beginning to see that she's different for him, that he really does love her.  Shy lets him know that they are living together, he's spending his time with her when he's not with the club, he plans on marrying her and starting a family with her.  Her dad gives them his official blessing.  Things move on from there.  They are insanely happy even buying a house together.  They are planning their future.

The only time I actually thought they might be done is when he finds out what she's been up to about his parents.  She gets a phone call from a very angry Shy and meets him and the other brothers at the clubhouse.  He's so angry he can't look at her, pretty much looks straight through her.  Her dad tells her to go home and wait for Shy.  It took me a little bit to understand that he was very angry but had no intentions of leaving her.  After he handles business with the guy who killed his parents, an eye for an eye and all that, he makes a trip to his aunt and uncle's house to get the diamonds that were his moms.  After that he gets on his bike and goes home to Tabby.  Once home and he sees how scared she is he makes everything right.  He gives her a pair of his mother's earrings and then apologizes for being angry.

More time passes.  They begin a new Christmas tradition.  He will give her sapphire earrings every year just like his dad did with him mom (her's were diamonds).  They move into the new house and talk about the future.  He wants 3 kids and marriage is a must.  She agrees.  They are practically engaged but he's going to give her the ring and ask her when it's the right time and she's fine with that.  He already knows her answer anyway.

They get a call from her bff at 3 am and she's in trouble...big trouble.  Shy knows the havoc it was cause on the MC but he rally's the troops and goes in to save her anyway.  They rescue the girl but Shy is shot in the process.  It's only a scratch to his neck but it could have been worse.  When he finally returns to the club she's so happy he's back to her.

"Always and forever, baby, you're stuck with me."

The epilogue is pretty simple.  He finally puts a ring on her finger and then marries her 6 months later.

It was the best day of my life, and a lot of that had to do with looking into my husband's eyes and seeing, plainly, it was the best day of his.


I love all things Kristen Ashley and Own the Wind was no different.  I give this book 5 Stars and I can't wait to read the next one!  If you love big bad bikers and books about MC's and how they take care of what's there then this book is for you!  Read it!  You'll love it!

My Shy / Tab


Favorite Quotes:

He had no idea what he did, what he said, but whatever it was, he'd do it and say it over and over until he took his last breath just so he could watch her laugh.

"I dreamed a dream, Shy."
"You'll dream more dreams, baby."
"I'll never dream,"
"We'll ge you to a dream, honey."

Shy Cage never dreamed a dream.  Still, he knew, without a doubt since he was holding one in his arms, dreams were real.